| Stay Your Course |
[Dec. 30th, 2007|01:47 am] |
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Aye, matey. If you read my writings, stay away from me for I have no interest in yer opinions. I have no interest cuz you do not know clinical depression, nor do you know how it is to be so excellent and struck down by a vile disease. You have no idea atall about being disabled, unable to do yer own house keeping and cooking because you cannot breath. I am sick always, and completely unproductive. You do not know my life, so you have no right to comment upon it. So shut yer trap and just leave me alone. |
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| No one is at fault. No not at all. |
[Dec. 29th, 2007|09:03 pm] |
Given that no one reads my journal, I am free to mention that I am so freaking tired of this asthma and my concomitant inability to work; and interacting with the inherited clinical depression, who would be at all surprised to know that I am going again.
Do not contact me or Rolland about this topic.
You do not know, no not a clue, what it is like to be such a loser, and to be so very alone. Yo, it is a disease that I have lived with all my life, and the asthma has kept me from the activities that keep me alive and positive.
Don't talk to me because you have no idea about who or what I am. Don't talk to me because I don't give a crap about what you think. Don't talk to me because I already know what an awesome family I have and how truly wonderful our life it together, Rolland and I. Don't talk to me because you have no idea about the depth of my misery and my devastating loser ID, and my shame from the June 1 incident.
Just get a grip. I have taken you as far as I can.
Get a grip, because I have no more to offer.
Take care of your dad, because, for some reason, he loved me consummately, and I love him as well. I just cannot live like this any longer, and you all need to get that. I ask no forgiveness because I don't care what you think. I ask for no understanding because you cannot give me that.
Take care of Rolland. I don't care if you judge me.
Just take care of your dad and my dog, and that's all I want from you. |
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| The Point? |
[Oct. 30th, 2007|02:07 am] |
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Sick, again, this time so much worse, I actually asked to be taken to the doctor. Brace for the earthquake. There is little quality in life when one is so sick that sleeping is even impossible, and not caring for one's husband, or the dog or the house or anything. High fever, so sleeping hot and cold, and miserable. Once or twice a year, not so bad, but much more often here. Pity the big baby, but she does not want pity. She wants release. She is so very tired of being sick, unable to exercise, unable to be competent. Wanting release seems reasonable, does it not? Asthma is again sucking the life out of her. It is a vile being that has taken all that she was, and now takes all that she is or could be. What's the point? |
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| Theme? |
[Oct. 26th, 2007|11:36 am] |
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| Football 'n Sports |
[Oct. 26th, 2007|11:31 am] |
OMG, People. We are living in sports heaven -
Football, Baseball, Basketball, Hockey
The teams are aligned.
Is this the Age of Aquarius???
Yo, COLTS are 5-0. Yeah. And Eli et al. are doing just great.
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| eBay? |
[Sep. 21st, 2007|07:52 pm] |
Wow, I SO hate this font, and have no idea how to change it. Silly me.
I'm thinking about selling on eBay because:
--it might be interesting (you know new and all)
--it might keep me busy in some productive manner
--it might provide me a social outlet
--it might make a few dollars
Hey, I would appreciate any comment, opinions, suggestions, OMG's, and/or whatever on this ebay thing.
Oh, the font looks good once it's posted. NP there. |
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| WNBA |
[Jul. 17th, 2007|08:44 pm] |
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Going to see the Fever trounce the Shock on Friday for Rolland's birthday. |
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| VOTING |
[Nov. 8th, 2006|03:32 am] |
Today, I did not vote since I was 18. WE were the first 18-year-olds to vote (1972).
I didn't vote because I have come to realize that "voting" is a pathetic ritual perpetrated on the American people to make them feel that they the can effect power by choosing political figures. I was sleep-walking through this facade, and was not too happy about waking up from my dream of democracy, Democrats, Presidents Carter and Clinton.
Now, I am wide-awake in the mainstream. I will not vote, again. |
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| GREAT FACE |
[Nov. 2nd, 2006|02:18 am] |
Here is a picture to make everyone smile.
What a great kid!!! |
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